Sorry

You're my best friend 
No you're not 
You're my sister stay in your place 
I can't pretend that you're not 
Threatening to me, I need my space 
I'm not lying I value survival 
Over you 

I'm on my own 
No I'm not 
I've my sister to fight for me 
I can't pretend that you wont 
'Cause you love myself more than me 
I'm not lying, so often you choose me 
Over you 

And I've tried to heal the wounds 
Make it as if it never was 
And I know I've done my best 
But I can never heal the scars 

I wanna say I'm sorry but I know I'll do it again 
I'll do it again 
I know what I did but I still don't know the reason 
I wanna say I'm sorry but I know I'll do it again 
I'll do it again 
I'll do it to you 
I don't wanna hurt you anymore 

I pull you close 
Feel your love 
Then I push you away from me 
Protect myself 
I'm not safe when my boundaries are violated 
And its kill or die 
So I choose me 
Over you 

A.D.D. is my excuse 
With my excuse I shot you down 
I know I've got to change 
But I can never work out how 

How can I say I'm sorry when I know I'll do it again 
Do it again 
I know what I did but I still don't know the reason 
I wanna say I'm sorry but I know I'll do it again 
I'll do it again 
I'll do it to you 
I don't wanna hurt you anymore 

Lash out in anger 
Hit the wrong target 
My little sister 
No matter what I say 
I love you so much I cannot leave 
But when family gets too close 
I always find it hard to beathe 

How can I say sorry when I know I'll do it again 
I'll do it again 
I know what I did but I still don't know the reason 
How can I say I'm sorry when I know I'll do it again 
I'll do it again 
I'll do it to you 
I don't wanna hurt you anymore